Thursday Thoughts
Hey y'all!
I hope everyone has had an amazing week and a blessed Thursday! Man, I just really need to say, GOD IS GREAT!! I truly have felt his presence with me all throughout this week. I had a slight hiccup yesterday at school (Which I still feel awful about) but I was told by Jordan, who kinda was saying what god needed me to hear in that moment, to let things go. I was just upset, and frustrated with myself for thinking I was giving our post tests correctly, but alas I was not and I felt really great the whole day until that point. I felt crushed that even in the moments I thought was doing everything right, something had to go wrong. My mood shifted. Jordan could see this in me and she stopped me at the door and said "Leave it at the door." and I was confused at first, thought I took something from the classroom by accident so I look around and she said again "leave it at the door, it happened but we can not change it now, we can let this moment stay here and not control the rest of our day." and in that moment, it hit me. Jordan was saying what I needed to hear, and in a way, a small piece of what god is showing me on this year of service. I cant let my mistakes tear away at me and inhibit me from continuing to grow and to strive to be the best I can be. It is okay for me to make mistakes and to be HUMAN!!! sometimes I feel the need to be utterly flawless but it is okay for me to make mistakes because im still learning. Not just in my year of service but in my life. I can make mistakes but I need to take them, learn from them and make sure they wont happen next time around. Its ironic because we are telling these students it is okay to make mistakes, feel sad, stressed, angry, yet I inhibit those feelings within myself more often than not. So accepting my mistakes and growing from them.
Today was my first day back at the elementary school I am a teachers aid for and I missed it oh so much. I work with k-4th grade at the school and my goodness those kids all remembered my name, became ooo enthusiastic when savannah and I walked in, and just hugged us so often. We see 8 classes in the day and we really try to focus on giving attention to all the kids and attention where the teachers need it. I really appreciate all of the teachers being so welcoming, so open hearted and willing to accept whatever help we can provide. Personally, I think these (and all other) teachers need more help and a better pay, because being in the class with them and seeing how they manage the class, keep the students moving and engaged, constantly leaning on one another for help and for being as present as any person in all of their students lives. The teachers are just so genuine, really care about these kids and try to help them any which was is possible. Which motivates me to really put my best foot forward, help the teacher enforce what they are teaching and hope to help students learn what they need. There are just so many times I found myself just amazed at the way things go in the school, how much the teachers put into making sure their students truly understand everything and how dedicated they are. I applaud all of the teachers at the elementary school and every school I have been at so far.
This evening, Sister kate, who was once a CAP volunteer with Father Beiting, who was the founder of CAP. There are many people I have met who can control a room, who can walk in and brighten in up, and she is probably the most intriguing person I have met down her. She is so real, genuine and just truly a gem to us all. She came into the house and was so cheery, bright, and inquisitive into who we were and where we came from. She lead our devotion tonight and at the end people shared what they were thankful for and I hadn't really shared anything tonight because I was just thinking of what it is I truly am grateful for. Well im thankful for so many things in my life: My family (those who I talk to a lot and those who I talk to a little), Kara, being able to serve in Kentucky, the people I serve with, getting served in Kentucky, my friends from middle, high school and college that I connect with, and for having God in my life. There are times where it seems like times become overwhelmingly difficult, like god isn't there, like theres no hope for anything, that a season like summer is coming to a close and it went too fast. Yet, there is a sense of thankfulness for the time we had, the life we get to live, and the ability to do what we do. I just am beyond thankful for everything thats been granted in my life right now, that I have an opportunity to affect the lives of so many (hopefully) and they all will affect mine for the rest of my life. So my challenge for those of you reading, and myself, is to go out and smile at someone, spread love, and be thankful you have the abilities your do and USE THEM!!!
PS: Shoutout to Lisa Truskolawski for sending me an amazing card and a pair of Patriots gloves for the winter! They mean the world to me! Love you!
Thanks for trying on my CAP!
Until next time Peace, Love and Blessings!
I hope everyone has had an amazing week and a blessed Thursday! Man, I just really need to say, GOD IS GREAT!! I truly have felt his presence with me all throughout this week. I had a slight hiccup yesterday at school (Which I still feel awful about) but I was told by Jordan, who kinda was saying what god needed me to hear in that moment, to let things go. I was just upset, and frustrated with myself for thinking I was giving our post tests correctly, but alas I was not and I felt really great the whole day until that point. I felt crushed that even in the moments I thought was doing everything right, something had to go wrong. My mood shifted. Jordan could see this in me and she stopped me at the door and said "Leave it at the door." and I was confused at first, thought I took something from the classroom by accident so I look around and she said again "leave it at the door, it happened but we can not change it now, we can let this moment stay here and not control the rest of our day." and in that moment, it hit me. Jordan was saying what I needed to hear, and in a way, a small piece of what god is showing me on this year of service. I cant let my mistakes tear away at me and inhibit me from continuing to grow and to strive to be the best I can be. It is okay for me to make mistakes and to be HUMAN!!! sometimes I feel the need to be utterly flawless but it is okay for me to make mistakes because im still learning. Not just in my year of service but in my life. I can make mistakes but I need to take them, learn from them and make sure they wont happen next time around. Its ironic because we are telling these students it is okay to make mistakes, feel sad, stressed, angry, yet I inhibit those feelings within myself more often than not. So accepting my mistakes and growing from them.
Today was my first day back at the elementary school I am a teachers aid for and I missed it oh so much. I work with k-4th grade at the school and my goodness those kids all remembered my name, became ooo enthusiastic when savannah and I walked in, and just hugged us so often. We see 8 classes in the day and we really try to focus on giving attention to all the kids and attention where the teachers need it. I really appreciate all of the teachers being so welcoming, so open hearted and willing to accept whatever help we can provide. Personally, I think these (and all other) teachers need more help and a better pay, because being in the class with them and seeing how they manage the class, keep the students moving and engaged, constantly leaning on one another for help and for being as present as any person in all of their students lives. The teachers are just so genuine, really care about these kids and try to help them any which was is possible. Which motivates me to really put my best foot forward, help the teacher enforce what they are teaching and hope to help students learn what they need. There are just so many times I found myself just amazed at the way things go in the school, how much the teachers put into making sure their students truly understand everything and how dedicated they are. I applaud all of the teachers at the elementary school and every school I have been at so far.
This evening, Sister kate, who was once a CAP volunteer with Father Beiting, who was the founder of CAP. There are many people I have met who can control a room, who can walk in and brighten in up, and she is probably the most intriguing person I have met down her. She is so real, genuine and just truly a gem to us all. She came into the house and was so cheery, bright, and inquisitive into who we were and where we came from. She lead our devotion tonight and at the end people shared what they were thankful for and I hadn't really shared anything tonight because I was just thinking of what it is I truly am grateful for. Well im thankful for so many things in my life: My family (those who I talk to a lot and those who I talk to a little), Kara, being able to serve in Kentucky, the people I serve with, getting served in Kentucky, my friends from middle, high school and college that I connect with, and for having God in my life. There are times where it seems like times become overwhelmingly difficult, like god isn't there, like theres no hope for anything, that a season like summer is coming to a close and it went too fast. Yet, there is a sense of thankfulness for the time we had, the life we get to live, and the ability to do what we do. I just am beyond thankful for everything thats been granted in my life right now, that I have an opportunity to affect the lives of so many (hopefully) and they all will affect mine for the rest of my life. So my challenge for those of you reading, and myself, is to go out and smile at someone, spread love, and be thankful you have the abilities your do and USE THEM!!!
PS: Shoutout to Lisa Truskolawski for sending me an amazing card and a pair of Patriots gloves for the winter! They mean the world to me! Love you!
Thanks for trying on my CAP!
Until next time Peace, Love and Blessings!
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