High school = Great, Me = not so much
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Happy Friday eve y'all! I hope everyone has been having a wonderful week, even with all of this crazy snow and rain we have been getting on the east coast. I pray you're all safe, with your families and doing well. I wanted to update you all on how the high school went since I was exhausted yesterday and didn't do it. let me just say, I love tutoring at the high school level. It was the schools first day back (Monday was off for MLK day, and Tuesday was closed due to ice or snow I believe) so things were a little chaotic. The day started bright and early at 6:15am, where Caitlin and I left at 7am to go to Martin County to the high school there. It took about forty-five minutes at most to get there. I really enjoyed seeing the school, the students and meeting some of the faculty I will be helping out. We were placed in the library and students would come to me during each period. Now, let me tell you that I haven't done high school math (algebra 1 & 2, trigonometry, etc...) in 5 years, so when I saw this stuff again, it took a second to remember how to do it! Luckily the resources the teacher gave allowed me to flip through, skim the page and get my memory jogged. For my future times there, the teachers will send me the assignments before hand so can prepare and help the students as best as possible. I really do think this will be a great time and I'm working with students from all grades, but mainly the juniors and seniors were who I saw on Wednesday. I know how crucial this time frame is for high school students, trying to decide what their next step in life is whether its trade school, college, work, military, etc... and I think I can see what my purpose. I am tutoring these students in math, but they all know the math, a lot of times the hesitate and they aren't sure about the answer or if the know that. Thats how I was in high school, my role is to lead these students to being confident in themselves and their abilities. I think thats why gods brought me to this school, to helps these students get the confidence to believe they can do what they work for and set their mind to. These young adults have the basics in school, they just need to see that they CAN do it, that they DO know it and that they WILL graduate. I think one of the best things god has taught me out here is to be confident in myself, my abilities and in who I am. Now I need to pass that on to other students.
He's also testing me A LOT. The past 2-3 days, I have felt very agitated, irate and just not in a good place. Now I can point to a lot of things that have made me feel this way, but I was always told when you point one finger, you'll have 4 pointing back at you (yes I know when you try it you'll realize your thumb points forward and not at you, but the point is to look inward before projecting outward). Ephesians 4:26, 27 says "26 Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, 27 and give no opportunity to the devil. " I have felt this anger, this frustration, and I've really tried not to react, to go to bed angry. I think this is the challenge, a long with learning how to lead better, is what god happens to be testing me in these upcoming days. I can sense my temperaments getting short and God is looking down going "heres another test, heres another test, do not let the anger consumer you. Be angry but be productive." Thats what I am envisioning he would say to me. I think I know myself fairly well, but I can't seem to understand why there are so many things that make me upset in an instance and I can't seem to just shake it off quickly. I know people won't do things like me, won't act the same way as I do or work the way I do because we are all unique in how we do things and how we go about our lives. I just wish I know how to handle this better, how to not be so stubborn with my anger and so closed off. I sometimes don't open up because I don't want to annoy everyone with how I'm feeling, but I also know that I may say something I regret in the heat of the moment as well. So then I'm left sitting in my office chair boiling over with no where to turn. wait. you know I've always known writing things helps me think things out, and its happened again. In this world I may feel like I have no where to turn, where I am right now I fee like I have no where to turn & I know I have friends, family, Kara, my community, to turn to, but sometimes I need to look up. I Tell so many people that everything will be okay, you have to believe, have prayer and give things upstairs to God and continue your action. God will provide, you continue to grind and he will provide. I need to trust in god more, I need to go to God with my praises and my woes. When I'm angry I need to ask him for a sign of why and for the peace, the reminder that things will be okay and that "this too shall pass." I am challenging myself and you all, in our times of anger, lets take a step back, lets take a deep breath (or however you'd like to calm yourself down) and let us not allow the sun to go down while we are still angry.
Thanks for trying on my CAP!
Hope you all have a blessed and Happy Friday tomorrow!
Peace Love and Blessings
Alex
Happy Friday eve y'all! I hope everyone has been having a wonderful week, even with all of this crazy snow and rain we have been getting on the east coast. I pray you're all safe, with your families and doing well. I wanted to update you all on how the high school went since I was exhausted yesterday and didn't do it. let me just say, I love tutoring at the high school level. It was the schools first day back (Monday was off for MLK day, and Tuesday was closed due to ice or snow I believe) so things were a little chaotic. The day started bright and early at 6:15am, where Caitlin and I left at 7am to go to Martin County to the high school there. It took about forty-five minutes at most to get there. I really enjoyed seeing the school, the students and meeting some of the faculty I will be helping out. We were placed in the library and students would come to me during each period. Now, let me tell you that I haven't done high school math (algebra 1 & 2, trigonometry, etc...) in 5 years, so when I saw this stuff again, it took a second to remember how to do it! Luckily the resources the teacher gave allowed me to flip through, skim the page and get my memory jogged. For my future times there, the teachers will send me the assignments before hand so can prepare and help the students as best as possible. I really do think this will be a great time and I'm working with students from all grades, but mainly the juniors and seniors were who I saw on Wednesday. I know how crucial this time frame is for high school students, trying to decide what their next step in life is whether its trade school, college, work, military, etc... and I think I can see what my purpose. I am tutoring these students in math, but they all know the math, a lot of times the hesitate and they aren't sure about the answer or if the know that. Thats how I was in high school, my role is to lead these students to being confident in themselves and their abilities. I think thats why gods brought me to this school, to helps these students get the confidence to believe they can do what they work for and set their mind to. These young adults have the basics in school, they just need to see that they CAN do it, that they DO know it and that they WILL graduate. I think one of the best things god has taught me out here is to be confident in myself, my abilities and in who I am. Now I need to pass that on to other students.
He's also testing me A LOT. The past 2-3 days, I have felt very agitated, irate and just not in a good place. Now I can point to a lot of things that have made me feel this way, but I was always told when you point one finger, you'll have 4 pointing back at you (yes I know when you try it you'll realize your thumb points forward and not at you, but the point is to look inward before projecting outward). Ephesians 4:26, 27 says "26 Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, 27 and give no opportunity to the devil. " I have felt this anger, this frustration, and I've really tried not to react, to go to bed angry. I think this is the challenge, a long with learning how to lead better, is what god happens to be testing me in these upcoming days. I can sense my temperaments getting short and God is looking down going "heres another test, heres another test, do not let the anger consumer you. Be angry but be productive." Thats what I am envisioning he would say to me. I think I know myself fairly well, but I can't seem to understand why there are so many things that make me upset in an instance and I can't seem to just shake it off quickly. I know people won't do things like me, won't act the same way as I do or work the way I do because we are all unique in how we do things and how we go about our lives. I just wish I know how to handle this better, how to not be so stubborn with my anger and so closed off. I sometimes don't open up because I don't want to annoy everyone with how I'm feeling, but I also know that I may say something I regret in the heat of the moment as well. So then I'm left sitting in my office chair boiling over with no where to turn. wait. you know I've always known writing things helps me think things out, and its happened again. In this world I may feel like I have no where to turn, where I am right now I fee like I have no where to turn & I know I have friends, family, Kara, my community, to turn to, but sometimes I need to look up. I Tell so many people that everything will be okay, you have to believe, have prayer and give things upstairs to God and continue your action. God will provide, you continue to grind and he will provide. I need to trust in god more, I need to go to God with my praises and my woes. When I'm angry I need to ask him for a sign of why and for the peace, the reminder that things will be okay and that "this too shall pass." I am challenging myself and you all, in our times of anger, lets take a step back, lets take a deep breath (or however you'd like to calm yourself down) and let us not allow the sun to go down while we are still angry.
Thanks for trying on my CAP!
Hope you all have a blessed and Happy Friday tomorrow!
Peace Love and Blessings
Alex
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